I've been in a bit of a funk lately. After finding out my best friend would be moving to Texas (she leaves this Friday) a few weeks ago, I just can't seem to stop being in a sad, whiney, funk. I've kept at all of my normal (and not so normal tasks) and I've tried to use my sadness to fuel productivity (read: my house is quite clean) but somehow I just can't quite get back to feeling like myself.
One of these days when I'm not so tearful I will write more about my sweet Auburn, but I'm just not there yet. For now, I've determined that in an effort to 'get over myself' I need to put my energy into other people. Moping around the house feeling sorry for myself just isn't doing anyone, including me, any good. It's fair that I'm sad, obviously. But it's not ok to be a useless, crying blob. And so...
After crying all night in my bathrobe cleaning my house (if you feel the need, you can white glove my room right now) after saying bye to her last night, I woke up this morning with a renewed sense of purpose. I set out to be a thoughtful friend this year and it's time to throw even more effort into that. I started two projects this morning for a friend who's also going through a challenging time right now, of a different sort. I put one in the mail over lunch and the next will go out in thew next few days (with input on the project from several friends and a coworker).
Since I didn't get to see my cousin this weekend, I've determined I will send him the present I got him at school (I don't think he reads this so I should be safe sharing that). I was really bummed that our hangout time was cut off by unavoidable circumstances - but I hope that my gift will brighten his week and get him excited to see me in DC in a few months.
I took the time over the last few weeks to finish up a few books and pass them on to friends (mostly blog world friends) to freshen up their reading collections as well. Swapping books is so fun and motivating to those of us trying to hit goals this year.
And so, I apologize for those of you who have been dealing with my funk but be encouraged - the end is in sight.